Moonflower

operation big items:

• big confidence by considering the people that love me (friends & parents) as well as things ive done that are great
• generally this feels ok; two things
• 1. general increase is better (still certain things it can help with)
• social interaction (e.g. orbit, asking about things, can i come in etc)
• freedom of prioritizaiton to me and not other ppl
• 2. resilience to certain things like rejections etc
• honestly they are connected
• tbh a lot of my confidence recently is from ppl loving me
• marc reaching out
• clara chatting
• jason reaching out
• wes & elie & ada helping me
• eva apprciation
• seeing lora and emmy and andrew and kaden
• the more recent experiences definitely drive me much more, although past people showing me love definitely is discounted too much
• its just that i dont remember them that much
• given a name i can remember specific experiences though (the people who love me list is great)
• such may be why photos / other recording devices than just pure memory may be valuable, and try to make more photos of things i appreciate so its not cluttered
• also, as a defense mechanism for something like resilience, i can just hit up people i havent talked to in a while by message or whatever and chat with them; renews the relationship and makes me feel loved (can also talk about whats bothering me)
• realizing many things are other peoples' opinions and take pride in moving away from it ( )
• (more deep connection with humans that i love and enjoying such convos)
• really intent on rsi etc, only when rejected do i want to spend summer doing my own
• "rsi super important" is clouded by other people's opinions
• "g4g is so good" is clouded by other people's opinions
• "top college good" is clouded by other people's opinions
• "sweets yummy!" is clouded by other people's opionions
• detach!
• focus on the really important things
• a good way to do this is put important things in the mornings and not important things in the afternoons
• "is this critical path? is this a hell yes?"
• interesting experiment: for the next 4d or 1w, only do things that are critical path / hell yes, and bias towards saying no. make a list of things i said no to to come back to after the experiment
• there is a lot i dont understand about the world and i feel that i am optimizing prematurely
• i am young (i have time)
• there have been amazing things that have happened out of literally randomness; doing new, crazy, big, weird things is always amazing
• e.g. the first day of g4g was surprisingly insightful (i did not expect it to be, although it may have been that some of it was because of
• thing; feel comfortable doing so
• SGD (some randomness and craziness and unpredictablility and doing random shit is good)
• this is a bit moot though, because i am already doing this and i cant really control my life that well
• i also do have a thing where i like to list out things and then be happy that i did so and then not do things
• one specific thing i might want to do for this is the prioritization
• many times i will be chilling doing work and then doing work that isnt important, possibly realizing that, but then continuing

for this batch of life improvements, i feel that i dont want to list them out and have myself review them (i was tempted to but its more about building mindset & understanding than a rigid upkeep, glancing at it once will do nothing but remind me of it, and im not likely to forget about such an important concept)

• this is also good because if something like "critical path! critical path!" is something im just satisfying by doing a minimal amt of stuff, then it is somone else's opinion; i should be obligated to go and do it
• i should do what i think is imoprtant

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